"If you want to be successful in life there is one rule: Don't lie to yourself."
-Paulo Coleho
If Paulo is correct then that explains why I've struggled with weight loss. For years, I have been battling the scale and most likely because I've been lying to myself. I've disillusioned myself about portion sizes, being "big-boned," imaginary thyroid issues, quick-fix diets and of course blaming my childhood trauma. In fact, if I were to graph out the last 20 years of my weight it would look like a roller coaster ride of epic proportions. So after all that, I've come to the conclusion that if it's not the diet or the family drama that's kept me from being healthy then I'm just BIG FAT LIAR! I don't want to be hard on myself, but I have to admit I've become quite the food eating con-artist.
Everyday, I start off with good intentions, but then by three o'clock I find myself stuffing my face or negotiating one more bite of something I knew I shouldn't eat. While I find that I can wipe away my guilty conscience each morning my body is starting to pay the price of my lies. Yeah, I can avoid getting on the scale, but I can't escape the increasing dress sizes and the way my whole body aches in the morning. I just feel heavy. My feet hurt and at this rate I will probably need a hip replacement. I need a complete over haul, but I can't just hop on the next fad diet for the hundredth time and think that this will finally be the time I can lose the weight and keep it off. No, no more lies for me. I need to face the cold hard truth. I love food and I will lie to eat it.
So, after some (okay a lot of) coffee and contemplation I came up with three ways that I will win this battle. First, I need to join an accountability group "Weight Watchers." Next, I need to track my food... all of it (the bad, the good and even the ugly).Then, I need to post all of my deepest and darkest food confessions on a blog. Yes! I know it seems extreme, but the only way to turn from my lying ways is to come clean everyday and what better way to expose myself than on social media. This means full exposure. Nothing scares me more than posting, but then Eleanor Roosevelt said, "Do one thing everyday that scares you," and she was a very smart lady. So on that note lets begin.
Hi, my name is Katie and I am an over eater. I am 50 pounds over weight and I lie about how much I eat.
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